Tuesday, April 22, 2008
{ 10:45 PM }
today started off with the EVD freshmen orientation thing. freshies, arent you guys a bit too obedient? i see the way Ivy and Sarah treat them like primary school kids, feel a bit sad for the freshies. well, as long as they enjoy the thing, thats fine. being design school freshmen aint easy. im a 过来人，i knew the drastic change between TDS life and secondary school life.
after that was the environment control intro by Harith. he asked for feedback and i gave. im sorry for being very straightforward(though i realised it only now). but i just spoke out what is on my mind. somehow, it hit the nail on the head...
i knew that lecturers arent trained to be a professional educator but seriously, they need to do their part as an educator. every word that came out of their mouth can be very influential. it can even change some one's life. from the day you decided to be a lecturer, you should know that you have great responsibilities. you are responsible for your actions, you are responsible with your words.
know what, i was nearly lead to astray myself. in my life, i never really had a chance to meet very good educators, not even my parents. but i still met one or two. they were my secondary school teachers who played a very important role in the last few months of my secondary school life. without them, i wont be right here talking about lecturers, without them, i guess even ITE wont take me. its the effort they put in that made me wonder to continue my studies... thinking back now, there were things i wanted to forget completely. but this shutted up door opened up due to this lecturer thing. i didnt have good memories with past educators that played a part in my life. it even became a shadow in my life.
and therefore, im very very particular about what i said to Harith. i hope he take it to heart, reflect it to the rest of the lecturers and improve on it.
after saying so much, so what exactly have i said?
i told him about lecturer just talk and talk and talk and what? and do nothing... its just like politicians. they are very propagated people. your words are influential but after all, black and white often defeats verbal agreements. yeah? yes, you can do the talking, but you need actions, you need facts, you need a "heart" to back you up. or its just an empty talk...
after Harith's class, supposedly, it should be creative writing. well, i skipped. remembered i said i want to work hard and craps and yet i chose to skip class just because a stupid reason; to buy headset. stupid right? stupid to you but not for me. i need it urgently. maybe you will ask me to prioritise my time. but its just like a drug addict without their drug. i need music everywhere i go. i just cant live too well without them. still, i ended up not buying anything because i didnt bring enough money. god damn shuck! lols. i thought on the way back home, i can have some music. lucky that im too tired after all the walking, i slept through the trip home.
