Monday, March 02, 2009
{ 6:53 PM }
didnt expect something like that to be happening in Singapore. this NTU guy stabbed his professor and killed himself. Dad said," 教授就是叫人受不了。＂not very funny huh. isnt people in the educational field supposed to educate the next generation? you treat lecturers like your enemy and lecturers treat you like a dog. isnt this sound so wrong? where are all the mutual respect? isnt school life supposed to be one of best your best memories in your life? how come currently its the opposite? isnt living in hostility tiring? im tired to keep repeating myself. but its the history that just keeps repeating and repeating.
friday, was called out by Zishan to have a drink. i wanted to get drunk, honestly. i dont feel like thinking anything. i just wanted to forget everything. but i failed to. there were 100 over people in the chalet. i knew almost none. people there were either having s**, taking D***, smoking and drinking. 100 over people , only 10% dont drink. that 10% were almost drivers. 100 over people, 95% smoke. they smoke a lot. im one of the minority. great self control, i thought. by the night, 98% of the troop smoke. im still one of the minority.
by the end of the day, i didnt get drunk. end up taking care of drunkard Alex and Zishan. when we are in the cab. people who were tipsy started reacting with the liquor. most of them were stress about life. words just kept spilling out of their mouth. the sober me just got to keep listening to them. im willing to be the one to lend a listening ear to them, seriously.
yesterday, or a few days ago. this guy fell from a 10 over stories building. i didnt expect him to die, seriously. i knew he is has been sniffing glue all the while... thursday, after one of my worst day, i took my bus home. i saw this drug abuse ad and i thought about him. when i slept, i dreamt about him. trust me, the senerio i dreamt of was exactly the same as the new report. he fell, right from the building. it was a chill down the spine. i actually felt like throwing up after reading that new report. i didnt expect that...to actually happen...
