Tuesday, May 25, 2010
{ 11:46 PM }
met Claire's friend today. err....its actually not something memorable that i have to write down (2nd time seeing him anyway).
but he did said something sophisticated that impact me a bit.
anyway, we bump into each other at the bus stop. and out of courtesy, we sat down on the bench, greeted each other and asked a couple of general questions while waiting for the bus.
when he asked me if im going home, i said "yah"
out of courtesy again, i shot the same question back. "you? going for some party?" the reason why i asked is because he was holding a box, designed, ribboned, with bakery name printed on. naturally makes you think of cake.
he reply, "nope, home."
i kinda "ohh..." and then ask about the cake. "so, someone's birthday?"
"mine. "so, i was thinking, "ohh, so you are a day older than me..."
"really? happy birthday!"
"thanks", his natural response.
and now, heres the thing.
im not being rude but the question just blurred out absent-mindedly. "so why is birthday boy carrying his own birthday cake?"
"cos, im celebrating myself..." i was really caught dumb-founded, dont know what to say at all.
"weird right?" he asked, breaking the silence.
"what?" my natural response.
"celebrating your own birthday..."
"i dont know..." im being true. cos i really dont know how is it like to celebrate birthday for yourself. "so....not celebrating with friends or family?"
"nope, i dont think they even remember or know." oh, thats sad, i thought. he doesnt look sad at all anyway.
he continued, "so, since in the world only i remember my own birthday, naturally im the only one celebrating. weird right?"
when i kept silent, he started pouring out. "you know what? birthday should be celebrated. no matter who is celebrating for you, how is it celebrated or whatever. it should be celebrated with joy and with memories."
"why?" i asked.
"its like a new chapter of your life, you see. everybody is conscious about their own big day, no matter how busy they are. just like today, it might not be a big to you, but it is to me. even though, no one is celebrating for me, i will fell sorry for myself if im not even celebrating myself. weird thinking right? but anyway, i dont feel lonely or sad at all. its my big day. it should be a happy event."
"wah...hmmm...really chim...well, you met me. so you are not alone celebrating birthday."
he laughed, "yah, right. i guess im telling you this because maybe deep down i really want someone who to celebrate my own birthday with me. thanks for hearing me. want some cake?"
"no, im no good with cakes and cream. thanks anyway."
then, my bus came and before i board, i told him, "happy birthday again. and anyway, if you want someone to celebrate your birthday why not just tell them?"
he kind of dont know what to say and then before biding goodbye, "just like what im telling you now...tomorrow is my birthday." and then i board the bus.
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so whats the morale of the story? coincidentally our birthdays fall back to back? maybe...
up till now i still dont think celebrating birthday is a big deal. i mean it is a big deal. but...to me, if im able to receive wishings from people who remembers my birthday, that would be my best presents. at least they remember. not necessary got to celebrate.
and, i still find you are the only one celebrating your own birthday is pathetic. if you want celebration, say out (a few days before).
