Why do people buy macbook (pro)? If its for work/school, yes, understood. Because its a trend? No way! do you spend that extra of 500bucks to buy the brand? Thats ridiculous. 

Sometimes its really contradicting to be the odd-one-out in a community. You somehow blended within it but at the same time you are rejecting some parts of it. Well, I know Im not making any sense but I really got quite uncomfortable about this our-way-of-thinking-are-different thing. 

Maybe its about the macbook thing that im upset about. whenever i see my macbook with all the design tools, I really wish to go back to the life where I can pursue what I like to do. There are a lot of hiccups here and there when doing designing work and you are seriously being under paid compare to the amount of time and effort you put in. But those "no-life" days were truly the days where I felt really alive. 

The deadline is drawing close. And I have made my decision to reject the offer from SIT. Jeez... feel like crying my heart out...